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Age is one thing, maturity quite another.

When will I get the maturity to accept the things that have bothered me....friendships that are over, lack of understanding from even close ones sometimes, the fact that dead people will never be around again...what should be simple to accept is NOT.

I keep trying to grow as a person, but with such limited success. Calmness vanishes, emotions rule, I lose my peace of mind.

Truly, the most difficult conquests are those within ourselves.


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Personally, I think too much maturity can kill. There are other facets that a "lack of maturity" brings.

Ignorance, as they say, can be bliss.

Well...too much maturity is called being "over-ripe" and then "rotten", I agree! ;-)

But I am not asking for TOO much maturity, just enough to prevent me from being tossed around out-of-control on the carousel of emotions.

And ignorance...more often, it leads to fear rather than bliss. And if it is bliss, it is a fool's paradise..that's what *I* think. I would rather see the storm coming than hide my head in the sand. Ignorance is not innocence.

And...nice to see you around!

Gosh , this could be my post D!!
I so agree with the last sentence!

Well,hel-LO!!! So nice to see around the LJ area; you must be so hectically busy...haven't got around to seeing the photos you sent, will have to do so in a day or two...

Well,hel-LO!!! So nice to see around the LJ area; you must be so hectically busy...haven't got around to seeing the photos you sent, will have to do so in a day or two...

I do agree with you. *sigh*

"...the fact that dead people will never be around again...what should be simple to accept is NOT."

-- this is not simple. For generations, people have struggled with that one. In fact, I am currently wondering a lot about this (hopefully it is a phase) - about death and more importantly, about the purpose of life (if it is going to end with Death anyways).

We keep trying to improve, to "grow" but there is never a limit, is there? Just when we are pleased with a milestone (or even *think* about feeling pleased), something comes along to stretch or test us and we fail miserably, falling flat....what is important is to get up and keep going.

Family, friends...all these are relationships created over time. In the end, it is upto us to deal with our emotions, our pain and our joys. Think about it - what goes on in our mind is entirely because of our own thinking and our responses. We have some expectations and when they are not met, we get anxious, feel bad and disapointed. We think about Past evenings. We think about words uttered, promises made, etc, but remember, people are constant changing!

Ouch..That hit too close to home..

Well. I've often been told I'm too mature for my age (yeah..yeah..), but what exactly do you mean maturity?
As Barry Lopez once wrote
"How is one to live a moral and compassionate existence when one is fully aware of the blood, the horror inherent in life, when one finds darkness not only in one's culture but within oneself? If there is a stage at which an individual life becomes truly adult, it must be when one grasps the irony in its unfolding and accepts responsibility for a life lived in the midst of such paradox. One must live in the middle of contradiction, because if all contradiction were eliminated at once life would collapse. There are simply no answers to some of the great pressing questions. You continue to live them out, making your life a worthy expression of leaning into the light."

I keep trying to grow as a person, but with such limited success.
The very fact that you're trying to grow as a person is a sign of maturity, and acceptance of your flaws(as you see them)..And what is life without emotions?Emotions..And our tendency to let them guide our actions is what makes us more human..

So,As I was once told, "cheer up.. Live life to the fullest.. Letting go ain't easy..But acceptance for what it is/was is kinda.. satisfying" to put it in one way..


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